RE: Internet Dating

Since the original internet dating post, I "met" a guy. We've been e-mailing each other for a couple of weeks, and now he wants to hang out. I gave him my phone number. I HATE talking on the phone to people I don't know really well. I never know what to talk about. So, now I'm a combination of scared, excited, freaked out, worried and anxious. What if we meet and he thinks I'm grotesque, or worse, if he's grotesque? What if he's boring? What if I'm boring and just don't realize it? Aw, crap, he already has my phone number. I can't back out now. I need a xanax.

The loss of Peter Jennings

It makes me very sad that Peter Jennings is gone. I'm not a big news watcher, but I do remember those horribly scary hours and days immediately following the World Trade Center attacks. Peter was there for me. I couldn't sleep; Peter was there for me. I was afraid to leave the house; Peter was there for me. It was very comforting then to know that Peter was there for me. What if it happens again? Who will be there for me then? Some strange anonymous face that hasn't been a presence since before I was born? Will they have the same comforting power that Peter had? I doubt it.

Thrift Shopping

I took the afternoon off work yesterday and went thrift store shopping with Brion. It was so much fun. The first thrift store we went to was full of crap, so we didn't buy anything there. We went to the Goodwill Store next, and I got lavendar platform flip flops, a pair for me & a pair for my mom. They were only 99 cents, and they were brand new with the tags still on them. They are so comfortable that I wore them today even though I don't own anything that matches them. I also got a portable hood dryer for $2.00. It's going to make my at home beauty shopping so much easier. Now when I give highlights I don't have to stand over the person moving the blowdryer around their head until their finished. I can just stick them under the dryer and forget about it. Yay!

Random tip: The Mind of Mencia on Comedy Central is one of the funniest shows I've ever seen on TV. You should totally watch it if you get a chance.

Some Unconquerable Thoughts

The stress I feel is overwhelming.
It comes in droves.
I can't escape it.
I feel so alone.
Make the madness stop.
I cry for help, solace,
Rest, happiness, an escape.
It never comes.
Stop the insanity!
Friends come and go,
but are any of them truely friends?
My name means worthy of love,
but am I, really?
Where's the proof?
Where's the love?
Who would care?
If I weren't here?
Do I make a difference?
Have I really touched anyone?
What is the price
Of a peaceful existence?
I couldn't afford it anyway.
They say ignorance is bliss.
Why did God make me so smart?
My brain
Is like a runaway train.
There is no stopping, slowing, braking,
Just an inevitable crash.
When will it come?
Is there a set date?
Why must I wait?

Internet Dating

I need some advice. I put a profile on an internet dating site, and was wondering if anyone had any experience, good or bad, with meeting people this way. Internet dating seems to be the future of dating, so I thought maybe I should join ranks since I haven't had any success meeting people in real life.

I'm a bit skeptical about meeting people in person who I've become acquainted with on the internet. All you can know about them is what they tell you about themselves, and you have no way of knowing if it's the truth. There are a couple of local bloggers that I wouldn't mind meeting, but I feel that bloggers are very honest people and aren't intentionally trying to deceive anyone. I think some, not all, people on internet dating sites can be less than honest about their intentions. That's really hard for me to deal with because I'm brutally honest about everything. A lot of the time a thought pops into my head and is out my mouth before I can stop myself, and lying just doesn't make any sense to me. I should probably just go with it and see what happens; ya know, quit being so cynical. Let me know what you think.


On a totally different subject, there was a Neopets question on Jeopardy today.

Harry Potter & other reasons I've been absent

Sorry for the absence, but I was a little busy, then I was reading Harry Potter. I finished it last night, and already I'm ready for another one. I think I'm going to reread Order of the Phoenix. It may answer some questions I have about some things in the new one. It was a very good read. There are some very shocking pages. And,
***spoiler alert***
would Ron & Hermoine just frickin' kiss already!
***end spoiler***

Okay, about the car, they won't give me my money back, but they did fix it, so I'm okay with that.

My friend Brion moved to Yukon a couple of weeks ago, so I've been wasting a lot of gas driving back & forth to Yukon. It is fun though to have Brion here & not 2 hours away. Also, since I'm driving out there anyway, I've been getting gas at the truck stops at Morgan Rd. I only paid $1.97 for gas a couple of nights ago. It was awesome. I felt like I was getting away with something.

Go buy Harry Potter. It's totally worth it.

Back to Life, Back to Reality

My vacation was fun, but that's over now. I'm not loving the car so much anymore. On the first day of my vacation, on the way to Tulsa, it broke down & I was stuck at the last McDonald's on the turnpike for an hour & a half waiting for a tow truck. They towed it to the sister dealership in Tulsa & they had it for a week, but they gave me a rental which was okay. The transmission light & engine light had come on, so they kept it for a week & all they did was tell me it was 3 quarts low on transmission fluid, so they put that in it. They said the transmission wasn't leaking or anything, they just sold me a car that was 3 quarts low on transmission fluid. K, so I got it back on Thursday, and the AC wasn't working. Drove it home Thursday night everything was fine. Last night it started making a metallic grinding kind of noise. Tomorrow morning I'm going to call them & tell them to come get it, I want my money back. And, Karissa was sick on Tuesday, so we didn't go to see Oklahoma. I'm almost glad to be back at work.

Vacation

By this time next week, I'll be hanging out on my brother's couch in Tulsa. I can't wait. Sean's couch is one of my favorite places in the world. My vacation starts on Friday. Friday night I'm going to my sister's house because I ALWAYS go to my brother's house when I get some time off, and I think it hurts her feelings. But, Sean's house has digital cable and a 56' TV. Leslie doesn't even get local channels. Sometimes I think it's sad & pathetic that my life revolves around TV. An article in Men's Health a couple of years ago said that your brain relates to spending time with your TV "friends" the same as it does to real live people. I'm cool with that. Your TV "friends" aren't going to stab you in the back or hurt your feelings or blow you off. They're always there. Anyway, back to the vacation. On Monday I'm going back to Sean's to shoot off fireworks. On Tuesday, we're going to Discoveryland to see Oklahoma! I LOVE Oklahoma!, well musicals in general, but Oklahoma! the second most(Grease is the first). Other than that, I have no plans. I'm so excited!

I got a new(to me) car last night. It's a 2001 Mercury Sable. It's really nice. It has a cd player & cruise control & power windows and locks & buttons on the key chain & tinted windows. I'm so happy about the car. I love it!

Have a nice day!

Recipes

I love recipes, cookbooks, anything that has to do with cooking. I could spend $1 million in Williams-Sonoma easily. When I was in high school I even made up my own cookie recipe and won several awards for it. I also like reading cookbooks, which some people think is weird. My favorite cookbook is the one my aunt Terri made me. It's full of secret family recipes that I'm not allowed to give to anyone. :)

A friend of mine brought me a new recipe today. It's for Asparagus Casserole. It looks really easy and yummy. I'll have to wait until next weekend until I have a chance to cook it though. Here it is if you're interested:

Asparagus Casserole

2 cups cracker crumbs
2 cups (8 oz.) shredded cheddar cheese
1 (15 oz.) can asparagus tips
1 (10 oz.) can mushroom soup
1/2 cup (1 stick) margarine, melted

Preheat the gas oven to 350 degrees. Combine the cracker crumbs and cheese in a medium bowl and mix well. Drain the asparagus, reserving 1 cup liquid. Combine the reserved liquid and the soup in a large bowl and mix well.

Layer 1/3 of the cracker mixture, 1/2 of the asparagus and 1/2 of the soup mixture in a greased 2-quart casserole. Repeat the layers and top with the remaining cracker mixture. Drizzle with margarine. Bake for 25 minutes or until golden brown. Yield: 6-8 servings.

Doesn't it sound good?

My Weekend

This Friday I went Tulsa & played with my neice Sydney while my brother went to work. She's such a funny kid. She just turned 2 in March & she talks a lot, but I can only understand about 2/3 of what she's saying. We played out side most of the afternoon and I got some much needed color.
On Saturday we all went to Bartlesville for Paige's first birthday party. It was about as exciting as a first birthday party can be. We went early because Sean & Karissa were getting Sydney her first dog at the SPCA. She's a really pretty lab mix puppy. Her name is Daisy and she's tan with chocolate spots, with one blue and one green eye.
I came home late last night, watched My Best Friend's Wedding, and here I am at work today. I actually have to do work today because my boss is coming back from her 2 week vacation tomorrow, and I have to make it look like I did something while she was gone. :)