I'm sad

We found out around Thanksgiving that my great aunt's longtime boyfriend had a cancerous growth. That's the "bad thing" that I was referring to here. It's going to kill him. Not very long after that we found out that my (same) great aunt's daughter has lung cancer. She's dying right now. She could have died already; I asked them not to call me with any news until after I get off work tonight. She smoked for many many years. She successfully quit smoking just a few months before she was diagnosed. You'd think that would be good motivation for me to quit smoking, but it hasn't worked yet. Anyway, I'm feeling very alone right now. I want to be with my family right now. I need their support. I've got a couple of relatives here, but because of my weird hours, I don't see them very often, and they're in bed when I get off work, so I don't want to bug them. It's times like this that I really miss my dad. There are certain things that only a hug from my daddy will make better, and this is one of them. *(Dad, I'm not trying to make you feel bad, and I don't want you to feel bad, but that's just how I'm feeling.)* Anyway, hope your day is going better than mine.

Again, seriously?

"Teacher had sex with 5 teens, police say" is the title of the article linked above. Again, I don't understand the thought process that would lead a middle school teacher to believe that it would be a good idea to have sex with 14-15 year old students. Does she not watch the news? She's pretty young, does she not remember what it was like when she was in high school and all the guys were talking on Monday morning about the chick they nailed over the weekend? Does she not listen to any of the conversation going on in the halls of her school? 14-15 year old boys kiss and tell. They're boys, that's what they do, ESPECIALLY if they just nailed the teacher! I just don't get it.

Seriously, people

Okay, first things first, I'm back! I got burned out on blogging for a while, but I think I'm ready to make a big comeback. Britney thought she was ready for a big comeback too, though, and we all saw how that's turned out.

Disclaimer: I quit smoking again. It's been 6 days, and so far, today has been the bitchyist.

Now, there have been some stories in the news recently that really pissed me off/boggled my mind. Let's get to it.

Principal charged with dealing crystal meth out of his office Seriously? I'm curious as to what made this man think this was a good idea.

Court: Bury Anna Nicole in the Bahamas Thank God they made the right decision. Her mother is an evil little woman who doesn't deserve the right to visit her daughter's grave when ever she pleases. I'm glad that if she wants to, it will be a major inconvenience for her. That's what she gets for being a media whore in the wake of her grandson's and daughter's death.

American Idol: It's Official - "Porn Idol" Antonella Is Safe Frenchie Davis should sue American Idol for discrimination. They kicked her off for just having topless photos. In the pictures of Antonella, she is performing a sex act. It's just not right.

Katherine Heigl Not Feeling Grey's Love This cast needs to band together like the cast of friends did when negotiating contracts. Everyone on Grey's Anatomy is equally as important to the series, and should be paid equally.

Sorority Accused of Being Skin Deep 23 girls were asked to leave sorority. "They included every woman who was overweight as well as the only black, Korean and Vietnamese members." I don't even know what to say about this, which comes out the same day as this:
Study: Vanity on the rise among college students Well, no wonder, apparently you have to be white, blond, and thin to succeed.

Also, I want to send a shout out to Jennifer Hudson for winning an Oscar for best supporting actress without being white, blond, or thin. Congrats, J. Hud.

That is all.

What's your elf name?

Your Elf Name Is...

Buddy Mc Flurry

What's Your Elf Name?

Mom moved last weekend. Turns out the party going on at Amanda's is a big pity party for me. I'm a lot more lonely than I thought I would be. It's going to take a little while for me to adjust to living alone again. I was off the non-smoking wagon for a couple of weeks, but I'm back on again. It's been 3 days, and it's raining again already. I'm almost convinced that bad things happen when I quit smoking. I have to keep telling myself that bad things are going to happen whether I'm smoking or not, so I might as well not smoke. I've lost 16 lbs. since I started Weight Watchers 2 months ago. I've been feeling pretty good about myself, but it's getting to be that time of year when I get the blues. I wish it didn't happen, but at least I know it's coming, and can get myself on an antidepressant before things get bad. I know there are a lot of people out there who enjoy the holidays, but honestly, they just make me sad. I long for the days when we were one big happy family. Everything is so different now with all the drama and everything.

I don't have the energy for this right now...maybe more later.

I'm free!

My mom got a job and will be moving to Bartlesville, 3 hours north of here. She's going to let me stay in the house if I make the house payments. The house payments are cheaper than a 1 bedroom apartment. Party at Amanda's!!!

Here they are

I tried to post these one evening last week, but blogger was down, and then I forgot.

Me, and my best friend Trisha at her house before the concert.


Me & my sister-in-law Karissa.


Me


The 3 of us at the Brady Theatre before the concert started.

And, finally, the diva herself...

Ms. Cyndi Lauper!!!

Cyndi

I have pictures from the Cyndi Lauper concert. I'll try to post them tomorrow, but no promises.

Why can't it just sprinkle?

They say when it rains, it pours, but seriously, just this once, why couldn't it just sprinkle.
The rain started last Thursday. I went to the doctor because I thought I was coming down with strep throat, whatever, no big, I wasn't worried about that. I showed her the spots I was getting from the nicotine patches, and she told me I was allergic and I had to stop using them. If that had been the only sprinkle, I'm pretty sure I could have dealt with it, but then, after I got back to work, I noticed that my face was a little splotchy, but I didn't think anything of it. About an hour later, one of the girls asked if I was feeling okay, and really I felt great, why did she ask? Well, because my face was really splotchy. That freaked me out a little bit, so I called the doctor. Stop taking the antibiotic and take some Benadryl immediately. K, so between me calling the doctor and the doctor calling me back, I got super worked-up/freaked-out/panicky, so I did what I do when that happens, I cried, and cried, and cried, and ended up going home for the rest of the day so I could take the Benadryl and sleep it off. Friday morning, my Uncle was having an angiogram. I called to find out how it went and learned that he had total blockage in 2 arteries and he was going to have to have bypass surgery when they got him stable enough for surgery. Well, they did the surgery this morning, triple bypass, no surprises, everything went well. Needless to say, I had a really emotionally trying weekend. Hopefully this is the end of the storm for a while. I don't know if I could handle much more.
I smoked a few cigarettes this weekend, but I'm trying to get back on the non-smoking track.

Like, oh my gosh, totally, for real

Trisha, Karissa & I are totally going to go see Cyndi Lauper next week! I'm so stoked. Cyndi is one of those people who speaks to & for the 14 year-old girl inside us all. It will be a totally awesome experience. Hopefully I can get a couple of good pictures with my phone.