Some Unconquerable Thoughts

The stress I feel is overwhelming.
It comes in droves.
I can't escape it.
I feel so alone.
Make the madness stop.
I cry for help, solace,
Rest, happiness, an escape.
It never comes.
Stop the insanity!
Friends come and go,
but are any of them truely friends?
My name means worthy of love,
but am I, really?
Where's the proof?
Where's the love?
Who would care?
If I weren't here?
Do I make a difference?
Have I really touched anyone?
What is the price
Of a peaceful existence?
I couldn't afford it anyway.
They say ignorance is bliss.
Why did God make me so smart?
My brain
Is like a runaway train.
There is no stopping, slowing, braking,
Just an inevitable crash.
When will it come?
Is there a set date?
Why must I wait?

Internet Dating

I need some advice. I put a profile on an internet dating site, and was wondering if anyone had any experience, good or bad, with meeting people this way. Internet dating seems to be the future of dating, so I thought maybe I should join ranks since I haven't had any success meeting people in real life.

I'm a bit skeptical about meeting people in person who I've become acquainted with on the internet. All you can know about them is what they tell you about themselves, and you have no way of knowing if it's the truth. There are a couple of local bloggers that I wouldn't mind meeting, but I feel that bloggers are very honest people and aren't intentionally trying to deceive anyone. I think some, not all, people on internet dating sites can be less than honest about their intentions. That's really hard for me to deal with because I'm brutally honest about everything. A lot of the time a thought pops into my head and is out my mouth before I can stop myself, and lying just doesn't make any sense to me. I should probably just go with it and see what happens; ya know, quit being so cynical. Let me know what you think.


On a totally different subject, there was a Neopets question on Jeopardy today.

Harry Potter & other reasons I've been absent

Sorry for the absence, but I was a little busy, then I was reading Harry Potter. I finished it last night, and already I'm ready for another one. I think I'm going to reread Order of the Phoenix. It may answer some questions I have about some things in the new one. It was a very good read. There are some very shocking pages. And,
***spoiler alert***
would Ron & Hermoine just frickin' kiss already!
***end spoiler***

Okay, about the car, they won't give me my money back, but they did fix it, so I'm okay with that.

My friend Brion moved to Yukon a couple of weeks ago, so I've been wasting a lot of gas driving back & forth to Yukon. It is fun though to have Brion here & not 2 hours away. Also, since I'm driving out there anyway, I've been getting gas at the truck stops at Morgan Rd. I only paid $1.97 for gas a couple of nights ago. It was awesome. I felt like I was getting away with something.

Go buy Harry Potter. It's totally worth it.

Back to Life, Back to Reality

My vacation was fun, but that's over now. I'm not loving the car so much anymore. On the first day of my vacation, on the way to Tulsa, it broke down & I was stuck at the last McDonald's on the turnpike for an hour & a half waiting for a tow truck. They towed it to the sister dealership in Tulsa & they had it for a week, but they gave me a rental which was okay. The transmission light & engine light had come on, so they kept it for a week & all they did was tell me it was 3 quarts low on transmission fluid, so they put that in it. They said the transmission wasn't leaking or anything, they just sold me a car that was 3 quarts low on transmission fluid. K, so I got it back on Thursday, and the AC wasn't working. Drove it home Thursday night everything was fine. Last night it started making a metallic grinding kind of noise. Tomorrow morning I'm going to call them & tell them to come get it, I want my money back. And, Karissa was sick on Tuesday, so we didn't go to see Oklahoma. I'm almost glad to be back at work.